Photo: Bill Fitzsimmons

I have been pretty cranky over the last few weeks. It happens. I am typically a super happy person, but when I am not, I’m not.

As someone who works in marketing, a percentage of my day is spent posting “positive” quotes and inspiration on social media. Last week even those positive sayings were becoming slightly annoying.

I have been working A LOT and to say that my “balance” has been off is an understatement.  Balance to me is alignment. It’s about well-being and I was lacking. Seriously, I own a company that promotes a holistic approach to life, business, wellness, happiness … I seriously needed to tighten up my program before I became a fraud.

I went to Sedona last weekend thinking that I would arrive and I would magically become instantly balanced (ever do that?).  However, once I arrived, I remembered I had a conference call that I committed to. Annoyed again. Not at anyone but myself.

I realized I was not taking care of myself in the way I should be. Determined for balance I ended up going on a hike with my friends and worked the conference call into the hike. I was quiet about it, but I am not going to lie, I was totally judged by a few passers-by. “Why the hell is that blonde girl on the phone?” Truthfully, I would think the same thing if I were them. “I am trying to be balanced people!!! Lay off please.” … see, I needed to relax.

The next day, I sat waiting for this miraculous sense of balance to flush over me, (i.e. “here I am, I’m outside in this beautiful place. I’m ready for balance!”) or an answer as to how I could stop being so cranky. Instead, I heard this voice screaming at me. Maybe it was intuition, spiritual guides, whatever it was, it was screaming … The time to have it all is now. “What the hell are you waiting for?!!!!! “ 

Seriously, what the hell AM I waiting for? What are any of us waiting for? It hit me that incorporating all of the things I love into my life NOW is the most important thing I can be doing. It’s not about shutting if off and then expecting it to turn on just because I was in a beautiful place. I should be working on fun, love, health, and well-being just as much as anything I am doing. These are all things I know … I seem to be taking them for granted lately.

After that moment, I sat in immense gratitude in my reacquaitance with this knowledge. In the realization that it’s not about learning how to work hard, I already know how to do that (we all know how to do that). Right now, is about learning how to have it all… and not having to ask myself “what the hell are you waiting for?” ever again. Because 99% of the time, the answer to that question is just an excuse anyway.

Here’s to right now. You in?